Lone Raindrops

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Last Monday I moved house again. I have lost count of how many times I’ve moved; of how many times I’ve flicked through old pages holding encounters, woes, stories only I know. It has been 13 days since I wrote in my journal. The turquoise book seemed buried too deep and it felt as though I had too much to write yet I was emptied of writing. Somehow I could not bare the task of writing my thoughts, emotions and events, it all appeared far too heavy and I needed rest from constructing sentences out of pain that produced joy.

Sometimes we need to empty ourselves. We need to let ourselves breathe; let ourselves be still; and let ourselves ponder.

Circumstances arise when we need them and God knows what we need and when we need it most. Our challenges are to bring us closer to accomplishing great things. They provide us with moments to acknowledge our blessings and they are opportunities to be stronger, braver, and more resilient time and time again. Through each challenge we are prepared for the next, we gain more compassion or patience or self-belief. We build upon our foundations with each difficult experience, layering comprehension of this earth life.

‘Imagine for a moment that you are a drop of water. As it happens, you are a very unique little drop – beautifully shaped, with only a cute little distortion in the way you reflect the light. People praise your beauty, and in time you come to believe that you are special.

But as time goes on, you become lonely. You long for the companionship of an other – another drop of water who will love you as you love it and help you feel less alone. You find that other, or you don’t; you fall in love, or you don’t.

And then one day it starts to rain. Seven billion drops of rain fall in a single afternoon and you are no longer alone. Briefly, you touch mitochondria with a single raindrop and before you know it, two have become one. You are still alone, but you are larger than before. With each drop of water you merge with, your entire being expands, until all seven billion drops become one ocean.

And you are still alone. And all is well.’

{Michael Neill, The Space Within -Finding Your Way Back Home}

Numbing our Spiritual Connection

The doctor prescribed me pain killers and I refused. I didn’t want a temporary solution to numb the pain. We have become a world in which the solution is to numb the pain. To cover the pain, mask the feelings of discomfort and carry on with busy lives because there is no time to be unwell or to experience suffering. There is demand for a quick fix. An immediate solution that will incur inner subtle transparent happiness or alleviation of aches and pains as a result of lifestyle choices that would take too much effort to change.

Hazardous substances are over-indulged in as if they are a necessity for survival without a second glance. Think paracetamol, ibuprofen, energy drinks, coca cola, fast food, sweets, antibiotics, caffeine, anti-depressants. They are all repressive, addictive, and covering up the truth, strangling us as pure and natural human beings who have regressed into disharmony and lost contact with clear, authentic, spiritually developing inner dimensions that expand our consciousness and connect us with our creator so we are able to fulfil our purpose.

Our Lives are Governed by Divine Timing

Tomorrow I had planned to go to Ramsgate for a bbq and fun on the beach with friends. A friend’s mother was going to be driving us over and giving us a life back. Today I received a message saying their car was out of MOT so they could not drive there and although it is only a couple of hours train ride away I have not the funds for the journey.

I had been exchanging messages with a friend I had met last year on the train. Trains were delayed and we connected through our love for travel, our misplacement in the world, our confusion with closed people who didn’t care for community, and our fond ways with words. She invited me to stay at her place in a town close to Ramsgate this same week. But I could not get there and I could not get to the bbq. Out of nowhere, my sister is going to this same town with her friends to stay for the exact night of this bbq. And so it has worked out that I am able to travel to this place, to go to the bbq and the beach, to stay with my friend, to explore, to connect with a human being who I share deep similarities with and to have a ride home the next day.

This is just a representation of the way the universe works. That everything has purpose, each event happens for a reason, and you will be taken to where ever you are supposed to be because it is all in the plan. When things fall apart, there is something else coming together. When it seems that you are discouraged and disheartened and all of those little things are going wrong, the pieces will come back together. You are always in the right place at the right time for whatever it is you need at that time and you just have to keep going. Keep moving forward and the answers will arrive in their own divine timing exactly when you are ready.